I know how you feel lefty. It's tough. I felt this way last year. I was really down on Hawkins. I didn't get season tickets, but I was getting those 4/$40 deals and had been to Hawaii and Georgia. Oct 16th was my birthday. A bunch of us got tickets and watched us lose to ****ing Baylor. Baylor, who was running the same play over and over again. Who had 3 WRs on one side of the field, and we only ever put 2 DBs over there. Getting 9 yards a pop running that stupid ass screen and watching us not do anything to fix it. I was pissed. That's when I questioned my fandom.
One thing I recommend to help deal with this pain is (shameless plug) get MEN'S BBALL SEASON TICKETS! It helped me get out of that tailspin. You get lots ofgames, in the early season you're basically guaranteed to see CU win some games. You'll get to sing the fight songs. You'll get to give the enemy the bird. It still can get pretty loud in there. The post game radio show doesn't sound so depressing all the time, so your drive home is much more fun. Get that taste of winning, get that school pride back. It's cathartic.
I feel good about CU again. I still look forward to football games. But now I also have bball to look forward too. Hell, maybe I'll head to Air Force or Ft Crap this year to watch them play on the road.
It's real nice to get that winning taste in your mouth again.
Go Buffs. I'll buy you a beer if I ever see ya Lefty.